Something that is really astounding me these days is how quickly time passes...and how quickly I seem to waste my time. A few months ago I applied to go on a charity trip to Uganda, and in 2 weeks time, I'll be on my way there. Gulp. (I feel far more inadequate for the task now than I did when applying for it. Hence the 'gulp'!) A few years ago, I started going out with this silly boy that I quite liked and i've found it amazing how much your love can grow for someone over such a (relatively) short period of time. Okay, okay, soppy I know...but it really does make me go WOW inside.
Another thing that is astounding (and kind of frustrating) is that I'm pretty sure I'm more focused on my future than my present. I've decided that I'd quite like to teach RE to secondary school kids when I've got my wee theology degree, and it makes me so excited that I think about it quite a lot. I also think about who (if anybody) I'll be with (well I know who I'd like to be with), where I'll live (somewhere in England probably), what school I'll teach in, whether I'll have a cottage or an apartment, whether I'll earn enough to be able to buy said cottage/apartment, whether I'll actually make a difference to the lives of the students I'll teach...
It's terrible. Well, it's good to dream but you know what they say about too much of a good thing. It actually feels like my present is being snatched from under my nose by my future. And that's definitely not a good thing because in missing the present, we miss all the beauty of all the moments we find ourselves in right here, right now.
So I'm making it my mission - not to forget completely about the future, because the endless possibilities drive me to be the best I can be - but to fix my focus on the step I'm on right now, and to appreciate the light that God shines on each one, one at a time :)
Care to join me?
