calling

Do you ever feel like you're being called to higher places?

i feel like that right now, and jeepers, i'm terrified :s

God placed this real heavy burden on my heart, every time i think about it it makes me want to weep. I have spent the past couple of days testing whether it was of Him or not, and i got it confirmed time and time again that it is a total God thing.

I know God is bigger than anything and that He can do anything and that i can do anything through Him, but i'm only human and it still seems pretty daunting :s at least i know for sure that i have the creator of the universe by my side.

before i go into this though theres lots of things i need to sort out like forgiving people, and other stuff that i just need to lay down at the foot of the cross. i need God to heal the hurt from the past. that isn't going to go away in a day or a week or a month. that healing process is gonna take a while, but i think i'm ready to do it. in the book im reading it says that stuff like bitterness and anger etc can hold us back from completing tasks God gives us. well i dont want anything to hold me back. so im gonna try and do whatever it takes to get rid of this hurt and anger and bitterness inside of me. God wants me to do this, so im gonna do my very best for Him. even if it hurts.

it probably will...