hmmmm
i had someone round at my house tonight (meganface, obviously) and we were talking about exciting things...and it got me thinking about stuff.
Okay, so God speaks to us, but i reckon He's speaking to us all the time. He speaks to us day and night, at school, when beboing, when playing guitar, when at resonate...all the time. but we dont hear Him. He's shouting to us, but we drown out His voice with our own thoughts or with other such distracting things.
So maybe im wasting my time writing this blog. i wonder what God is trying to say to me now?
i wonder what would happen if we listened closely all the time...
amazing things i reckon : )
so, my challenge to you is.....get off this. get off it right now.
and i really dont care if you havent read your emails yet, or if you want just one more minute to browse on bebo...get off it NOW and go somewhere quiet and just listen to God....read your bible, pray.....just listen.
see what He tells you :p
Friday, 7 December 2007
Sunday, 2 December 2007
"now is the time"...?
i keep on hearing the phrase "now is the time" everywhere these days...
true, now is the time for alot of things...
but its been a long and hard waiting game for other things.
it just leaves me wondering, is now really the time? is now Gods time?
like, okay, i know no one knows when Gods time is for stuff, and i know His timing is always perfect...
okay maybe i should just accept that Gods timing is best instead of questioning everything lol.
its good to ask questions, but you can ask so many and think way too much, and it can really really really damage your faith.
but its annoying me lol. i cant get it out of my head. when will God do it? when is His time?
i wish He would hurry up lol.
im so hungry for more. i just want more..."without measure or limit"...
i guess, ill just have to wait a little longer. but its okay, im willing to wait, no matter how hard and frustrating it is
true, now is the time for alot of things...
but its been a long and hard waiting game for other things.
it just leaves me wondering, is now really the time? is now Gods time?
like, okay, i know no one knows when Gods time is for stuff, and i know His timing is always perfect...
okay maybe i should just accept that Gods timing is best instead of questioning everything lol.
its good to ask questions, but you can ask so many and think way too much, and it can really really really damage your faith.
but its annoying me lol. i cant get it out of my head. when will God do it? when is His time?
i wish He would hurry up lol.
im so hungry for more. i just want more..."without measure or limit"...
i guess, ill just have to wait a little longer. but its okay, im willing to wait, no matter how hard and frustrating it is
untitled
my posts have such stupid names...
anyways,
today was awesome. totally awesome! God taught me alot. alotalotalot...and He is just ammmmmazing...
i keep asking myself what life would be like without Him...and seriously i cant imagine how crap it would be. what would i be living for? nothing...or something pretty dumb anyways.
the past wee while has been awful, its just seemed like attack after attack after attack. but another thing that ive been thinking of is fire. fire refines, but in order to refine, it has to burn the metal and melt all the crap off...its like God with us. thats what He does with us. so amidst all the burning and hurting...God has been there, working out His purposes...just like He said He would. funny thing is, after all the crap, i actually feel a little refined. theres a long way to go yet, but its all one step at a time i guess!
God is about to really really really burst into peoples lives right now..i dont know whether to be terrified or overjoyed...
think ill go for overjoyed! :p
anyways,
today was awesome. totally awesome! God taught me alot. alotalotalot...and He is just ammmmmazing...
i keep asking myself what life would be like without Him...and seriously i cant imagine how crap it would be. what would i be living for? nothing...or something pretty dumb anyways.
the past wee while has been awful, its just seemed like attack after attack after attack. but another thing that ive been thinking of is fire. fire refines, but in order to refine, it has to burn the metal and melt all the crap off...its like God with us. thats what He does with us. so amidst all the burning and hurting...God has been there, working out His purposes...just like He said He would. funny thing is, after all the crap, i actually feel a little refined. theres a long way to go yet, but its all one step at a time i guess!
God is about to really really really burst into peoples lives right now..i dont know whether to be terrified or overjoyed...
think ill go for overjoyed! :p
Saturday, 24 November 2007
lol
ive been learning how to pray...okay so there isnt a set way that you can pray, but ive been learning a way which suits me more. sounds a bit silly but it works for me really really well.
on a completely different note altogether, ive been watching MobileAct Unsigned on T4 alot these days too, its such a great show. anyways, theres a really really really good band...and i want them to win so i can buy their album lol...so go to this link and tell me what you think of them!
http://www.mobileact.co.uk/bands/Hijak-Oscar
i love it!
emmm what else....hmm theres alot, but i wont go into it : P
on a completely different note altogether, ive been watching MobileAct Unsigned on T4 alot these days too, its such a great show. anyways, theres a really really really good band...and i want them to win so i can buy their album lol...so go to this link and tell me what you think of them!
http://www.mobileact.co.uk/bands/Hijak-Oscar
i love it!
emmm what else....hmm theres alot, but i wont go into it : P
Saturday, 17 November 2007
Monday, 22 October 2007
hehe...
wow!
ive had quite an eventful weekend... : )
my heart was broken...more...and i dont think i can ever get over what i saw..in short, we were in belfast helping the homeless. saw lots, hurt lots, cried lots, prayed lots. Decided to speak in church about it...so i did and well, got great response from the congregation. a wee old lady gave me the money she would have spent on the church christmas dinner...she decided not to go because she thought it was a disgrace how much it cost when there are people living on the streets who have nothing. so, she gave me her money (£27) and told me to buy food for the homeless next time i was out. but i think the next bit is...well its someting else. as i was thanking her and telling her that God loves her worship, she interrupted me...last year her husband died..she told me that she still has all of his old clothes and underwear and stuff. with tears in her eyes this lady (who i think is still completely broken over her husbands death) told me that she wanted to give me the clothes. every single last garment so i could give the homeless some new clothes to wear. she actually cried and as i hugged her i realised the depth of her giving...this is what worship is all about. sacrificial giving.
that wee lady is truly amazing and she doesnt realise how amazing her gift is!
As i prayed over the congregation on sunday morning begging God to break the hearts of the people sitting in their pews, it hit me. this is what its all about. raising awareness, telling the Church to go just as JC himself commanded. i reckon the Church needs alot of motivation. alot. so i encourage you, if theres ever anything on your heart and it just feels like youre gonna explode, tell your church. seriously. that explosion is a sign from the Holy Spirit that God wants to use what youve gotta say. Even if people ridicule you afterwards, even if no one seems to care, just remember this: God has worked in you, he has planted a seed in the hearts of those people and someday they will see something and it will hit them like a ton of bricks. the flower will blossom and God will begin something in them!
It says this in Jeremiah 20:7...
"The words are fire in my belly, a burning in my bones. I'm worn out trying to hold it in. I can't do it any longer!"
So thats one story : P
ive had quite an eventful weekend... : )
my heart was broken...more...and i dont think i can ever get over what i saw..in short, we were in belfast helping the homeless. saw lots, hurt lots, cried lots, prayed lots. Decided to speak in church about it...so i did and well, got great response from the congregation. a wee old lady gave me the money she would have spent on the church christmas dinner...she decided not to go because she thought it was a disgrace how much it cost when there are people living on the streets who have nothing. so, she gave me her money (£27) and told me to buy food for the homeless next time i was out. but i think the next bit is...well its someting else. as i was thanking her and telling her that God loves her worship, she interrupted me...last year her husband died..she told me that she still has all of his old clothes and underwear and stuff. with tears in her eyes this lady (who i think is still completely broken over her husbands death) told me that she wanted to give me the clothes. every single last garment so i could give the homeless some new clothes to wear. she actually cried and as i hugged her i realised the depth of her giving...this is what worship is all about. sacrificial giving.
that wee lady is truly amazing and she doesnt realise how amazing her gift is!
As i prayed over the congregation on sunday morning begging God to break the hearts of the people sitting in their pews, it hit me. this is what its all about. raising awareness, telling the Church to go just as JC himself commanded. i reckon the Church needs alot of motivation. alot. so i encourage you, if theres ever anything on your heart and it just feels like youre gonna explode, tell your church. seriously. that explosion is a sign from the Holy Spirit that God wants to use what youve gotta say. Even if people ridicule you afterwards, even if no one seems to care, just remember this: God has worked in you, he has planted a seed in the hearts of those people and someday they will see something and it will hit them like a ton of bricks. the flower will blossom and God will begin something in them!
It says this in Jeremiah 20:7...
"The words are fire in my belly, a burning in my bones. I'm worn out trying to hold it in. I can't do it any longer!"
So thats one story : P
Monday, 15 October 2007
yeoooooo
well, i went to see the rev...
told him the story from the beginning...even printed out the verses from amos that have been on my heart and playing over and over in my mind...he said that the idea has obviously been birthed from prayer and reading the bible and God time, and that he will support it 100%
so that means "ALL SYSTEMS GO!"
Colin says i can do all of my ideas! every single one!!
Plus, hes gonna try and get a tearfund guy in to speak on the last sunday of it : D like seriously though, how flippin AWESOME is that?! so looks like ive gotta do everything for it, which is absolutely fantastic! wouldnt have it any other way. cant wait to see thomas street praying for the world...God is gonna move!!
told him the story from the beginning...even printed out the verses from amos that have been on my heart and playing over and over in my mind...he said that the idea has obviously been birthed from prayer and reading the bible and God time, and that he will support it 100%
so that means "ALL SYSTEMS GO!"
Colin says i can do all of my ideas! every single one!!
Plus, hes gonna try and get a tearfund guy in to speak on the last sunday of it : D like seriously though, how flippin AWESOME is that?! so looks like ive gotta do everything for it, which is absolutely fantastic! wouldnt have it any other way. cant wait to see thomas street praying for the world...God is gonna move!!
various happenings
School is a funny sort of place...its both good and bad. I guess though, im struggling to see the good.
Like, i know God wants me there to study and get good grades so that doors will be opened and stuff..but school is so lonely. Its lonely in a friends sort of way (well, that might be a God thing but yeah, just dont ask lol) and i dont know whether to be happy or sad about that tbh. I mean, perhaps God wants me to make new mates and get them involved with Him..but thats hard for me : ( im a kinda shy person...well not shy, just quite quiet thats all. Maybe God wants me to help lonely people in school, or maybe He wants me to spend the time i would have spent with my mates with Him instead...hmm its all a bit confusing. Still, ill ask Him whats going on lol. Im pretty sure He will fill me in.
Im going to see colin tonight! cant wait to see what hes gonna say about the prayer week. ive got loads of ideas for it...getting the church involved in the bigger issues is so great. and it aint just an optional extra with being a christian. its part of our duty! a huge part!
oh heres the link btw, just incase you want to see it...but sure, no one ever reads this anyway lol
http://www.bepartofamiracle.org.uk/Prayer+week
so yeah, ill do another post when i get home from the wee meeting : ) yeooooo
Like, i know God wants me there to study and get good grades so that doors will be opened and stuff..but school is so lonely. Its lonely in a friends sort of way (well, that might be a God thing but yeah, just dont ask lol) and i dont know whether to be happy or sad about that tbh. I mean, perhaps God wants me to make new mates and get them involved with Him..but thats hard for me : ( im a kinda shy person...well not shy, just quite quiet thats all. Maybe God wants me to help lonely people in school, or maybe He wants me to spend the time i would have spent with my mates with Him instead...hmm its all a bit confusing. Still, ill ask Him whats going on lol. Im pretty sure He will fill me in.
Im going to see colin tonight! cant wait to see what hes gonna say about the prayer week. ive got loads of ideas for it...getting the church involved in the bigger issues is so great. and it aint just an optional extra with being a christian. its part of our duty! a huge part!
oh heres the link btw, just incase you want to see it...but sure, no one ever reads this anyway lol
http://www.bepartofamiracle.org.uk/Prayer+week
so yeah, ill do another post when i get home from the wee meeting : ) yeooooo
Sunday, 14 October 2007
greater things are yet to come
Well, its officially official : )
God wants me to bring it up at the meeting, and He wants me to run the prayer week. How awesome is that?!
Megan was round at mine and we were having a wee God time, and i went upstairs to get us some bibles and i found "The Vision and The Vow" book sitting beside my mums bed. Hadnt read it in a while so i just flicked through and opened up at a random page. And i started reading in the middle of this paragraph and it talked about how worship involves caring for the poor and being active in that care. So that was conformation number one : )
Number two came this morning. Harvest in Thomas Street is a pretty cool time : ) and there was this minister dude from lisburn preaching. And the whole sermon was based on caring for the poor and injustice and stuff...so i spoke to nigel about stuff and he said "emma, thats your conformation. you have to do it now"
So i dont really know whether to be happy or to be scared...i mean, now, theres no turning back. and if i do turn back, i might just get swallowed by a big whale and lets face it, no one wants that!
So, all i have left to do is talk to the rev colin about it..and see if i can get his permission : ) ive got a slot with him tomorrow. And i know since God wants it, colin will say yes. that guy is so tuned in with the Holy Spirit its unreal.
Praise this morning and tonight was amazing. a wee lady told nigel she was so blessed by the music and gave us some money so we can have a day out sometime. I felt that today was the start of something really REALLY amazing for our church..maybe revival? maybe awakening? maybe fire? only God knows...and i cant wait to see whats gonna happen! Its just so bloomin exciting : )
Keep praying!!
God wants me to bring it up at the meeting, and He wants me to run the prayer week. How awesome is that?!
Megan was round at mine and we were having a wee God time, and i went upstairs to get us some bibles and i found "The Vision and The Vow" book sitting beside my mums bed. Hadnt read it in a while so i just flicked through and opened up at a random page. And i started reading in the middle of this paragraph and it talked about how worship involves caring for the poor and being active in that care. So that was conformation number one : )
Number two came this morning. Harvest in Thomas Street is a pretty cool time : ) and there was this minister dude from lisburn preaching. And the whole sermon was based on caring for the poor and injustice and stuff...so i spoke to nigel about stuff and he said "emma, thats your conformation. you have to do it now"
So i dont really know whether to be happy or to be scared...i mean, now, theres no turning back. and if i do turn back, i might just get swallowed by a big whale and lets face it, no one wants that!
So, all i have left to do is talk to the rev colin about it..and see if i can get his permission : ) ive got a slot with him tomorrow. And i know since God wants it, colin will say yes. that guy is so tuned in with the Holy Spirit its unreal.
Praise this morning and tonight was amazing. a wee lady told nigel she was so blessed by the music and gave us some money so we can have a day out sometime. I felt that today was the start of something really REALLY amazing for our church..maybe revival? maybe awakening? maybe fire? only God knows...and i cant wait to see whats gonna happen! Its just so bloomin exciting : )
Keep praying!!
Wednesday, 10 October 2007
breaking...
God is answering my prayers for my heart to be broken...
tho, its harder than i thought it would be. Way harder.
Injustice, poverty, murders, suicides, AIDS, homelessness, addiction, rejection, trafficking, abuse, domestic violence, rape, the unsaved...i find my heart crying out for the church to help, but no one seems to care. They're all too busy worrying about powerpoint or sound equipment or the building or the church leaders.
In my church, ive recently been asked to represent the youth board on the worship committee...that is totally fantastic, i have this real passion for intimate and meaningful worship and being on the committee will allow me to voice my opinion on the subject...but what if God is fed up with our songs? What if He is telling us to stop singing and we ignore Him, for comforts sake. What if our call to worship is more than songs/art/drama/whatever your gift is...
What if our call to worship has to be out there, outside our warm, comfortable, familiar churches...and out there giving and giving and giving instead of getting...
Thats what im gonna bring up at the next meeting. I seriously believe that God is fed up with nice wee songs and that He just wants us to go out and fulfill our roles as Christians ('little Christs').
I am ashamed of the state of the church...at the petty arguments over nothing that really matters, at Christians not showing love to one another...me and grandma were talking about that today actually...about how if Christians cant love one another, then how can they expect to be blessed by God or love effectively?
Im also ashamed at the greed of our society. I am ashamed of myself for wanting more 'stuff' when i already have more than enough material things...poverty is caused by greed.
So, im gonna pray about this. And if JC says i can bring this up at the next meeting then i will. And if JC says that i can get our church to take part in the Global Poverty Prayer Week...then i will.
Im ready for Him to take me anywhere. Bring it on God!
tho, its harder than i thought it would be. Way harder.
Injustice, poverty, murders, suicides, AIDS, homelessness, addiction, rejection, trafficking, abuse, domestic violence, rape, the unsaved...i find my heart crying out for the church to help, but no one seems to care. They're all too busy worrying about powerpoint or sound equipment or the building or the church leaders.
In my church, ive recently been asked to represent the youth board on the worship committee...that is totally fantastic, i have this real passion for intimate and meaningful worship and being on the committee will allow me to voice my opinion on the subject...but what if God is fed up with our songs? What if He is telling us to stop singing and we ignore Him, for comforts sake. What if our call to worship is more than songs/art/drama/whatever your gift is...
What if our call to worship has to be out there, outside our warm, comfortable, familiar churches...and out there giving and giving and giving instead of getting...
Thats what im gonna bring up at the next meeting. I seriously believe that God is fed up with nice wee songs and that He just wants us to go out and fulfill our roles as Christians ('little Christs').
I am ashamed of the state of the church...at the petty arguments over nothing that really matters, at Christians not showing love to one another...me and grandma were talking about that today actually...about how if Christians cant love one another, then how can they expect to be blessed by God or love effectively?
Im also ashamed at the greed of our society. I am ashamed of myself for wanting more 'stuff' when i already have more than enough material things...poverty is caused by greed.
So, im gonna pray about this. And if JC says i can bring this up at the next meeting then i will. And if JC says that i can get our church to take part in the Global Poverty Prayer Week...then i will.
Im ready for Him to take me anywhere. Bring it on God!
Friday, 5 October 2007
summer thoughts..
wow...i havent been on this thing for a while!
Well so much has happened! Despite being really terrified about getting my GCSE results, i passed all of them and am now back in portadown college (joy...) studying all of my 1st choice subjects (for those of you who are interested they are music, RE, ICT and english lit) so i guess in some ways thats good lol. School is great these days, a bit lonely at times, but the classes really inspire me and they are really in depth which is amazing : ) especially with RE cause i really dont like having to regurgitate bible stories in exams...i like to think deeper about things...and half of the course is philosophy stuff so thats brilliant : )
Summer Madness was...mad! It only rained a wee tiny bit and all in all the weather was top notch so a big thankyou to The Big Man up there for answering my prayers : ) i also found the teaching very VERY challenging...it left me thinking about how i live my life and how i need to change alot of it so i can be more in touch with JC and God and the Holy Spirit in my life. Amazing stuff : ) although i think that people who attend the likes of SM expect to come out of the morning and evening main stage worship sessions feeling 'fuzzy' and all nice and 'warm' inside cause they have experienced the love of God. And yes, you could for sure feel God in that place theres no denying it...but God didnt just want us to feel all cozy and then leave on a high. He wanted to see his love manifested in us so we can change the world. God made us hurt for the poor and the broken...and he made me look upon my life with shame...how i spend my money, how i focus on stuff that doesnt matter in the long run, how i walk on past hurting people without looking back. So it was weird walking out on the first night not feeling really good. But it was amazing, and i will never forget it. He taught me so much about everything. I really feel that SM this year was a real turning point for me in my spiritual growth...and yeah, that may be a somewhat cliched thing to say, but like, its just so true. And in one of the previous posts i had commented on how i find it impossible to hear the voice of God...well i heard it in the most clear way ive ever heard it before on one of the nights. God gave me words that i believe werent just for the person i was praying for, but were for me too. So much happened at SM, so much its unreal.
At Castlewellan Holiday Bible Week i learned what it meant to cry out to God...not by what people taught or from the worship or anything like that...it was just me and God...no one else. Just started praying in the middle of worship for ireland, for the lost, for the druggies, for the homeless, for the alcoholics, for the people who surrounded me worshipping in the room. I got the feeling that i had to pray for them to get convicted...so i did...and tbh, i dont know if it had an effect on anyone, i didnt open my eyes to look, but that prayer was one of the most passionate prayers i have ever prayed. And i knew God was listening...i always get this image of God when i pray...i imagine him sitting on this throne with this notepad in his hand...and he writes down my prayers...and when he is writing them down and perhaps forgets what comes next, the angels tell him and he laughs at himself and continues writing...it makes me smile to think of God laughing...i cant wait to go up there and laugh with him!
The TOM team left Richhill...Eliz, Ruth, Ben + Timmy. They were just so great there. They moved in that place like i dont know what...and they taught me heaps and they listened to me and gave advice and laughed and just loved. All of what i want to say just sounds so cheesy lol...they are such Christ-like people...and i love them!
Pete Ferg left the methodist circuit to train for ministry in the dark side (only joking : P)...that guy taught me more than he will ever know! He is the one responsible for bringing me back to God and for setting my heart on fire for Him. God is gonna work amazingly through pete, and his kid rebekah doesnt have a clue how lucky she is to have a dad like him!
aw flip, im getting all soppy lol. see, told you it was cheesy!
sometimes i wonder if anyone actually reads this...if they dont i dont really mind cause i enjoy typing up my thoughts...its very theraputic or something lol.
I wont leave it for ages before i make another post...promise ; )
Well so much has happened! Despite being really terrified about getting my GCSE results, i passed all of them and am now back in portadown college (joy...) studying all of my 1st choice subjects (for those of you who are interested they are music, RE, ICT and english lit) so i guess in some ways thats good lol. School is great these days, a bit lonely at times, but the classes really inspire me and they are really in depth which is amazing : ) especially with RE cause i really dont like having to regurgitate bible stories in exams...i like to think deeper about things...and half of the course is philosophy stuff so thats brilliant : )
Summer Madness was...mad! It only rained a wee tiny bit and all in all the weather was top notch so a big thankyou to The Big Man up there for answering my prayers : ) i also found the teaching very VERY challenging...it left me thinking about how i live my life and how i need to change alot of it so i can be more in touch with JC and God and the Holy Spirit in my life. Amazing stuff : ) although i think that people who attend the likes of SM expect to come out of the morning and evening main stage worship sessions feeling 'fuzzy' and all nice and 'warm' inside cause they have experienced the love of God. And yes, you could for sure feel God in that place theres no denying it...but God didnt just want us to feel all cozy and then leave on a high. He wanted to see his love manifested in us so we can change the world. God made us hurt for the poor and the broken...and he made me look upon my life with shame...how i spend my money, how i focus on stuff that doesnt matter in the long run, how i walk on past hurting people without looking back. So it was weird walking out on the first night not feeling really good. But it was amazing, and i will never forget it. He taught me so much about everything. I really feel that SM this year was a real turning point for me in my spiritual growth...and yeah, that may be a somewhat cliched thing to say, but like, its just so true. And in one of the previous posts i had commented on how i find it impossible to hear the voice of God...well i heard it in the most clear way ive ever heard it before on one of the nights. God gave me words that i believe werent just for the person i was praying for, but were for me too. So much happened at SM, so much its unreal.
At Castlewellan Holiday Bible Week i learned what it meant to cry out to God...not by what people taught or from the worship or anything like that...it was just me and God...no one else. Just started praying in the middle of worship for ireland, for the lost, for the druggies, for the homeless, for the alcoholics, for the people who surrounded me worshipping in the room. I got the feeling that i had to pray for them to get convicted...so i did...and tbh, i dont know if it had an effect on anyone, i didnt open my eyes to look, but that prayer was one of the most passionate prayers i have ever prayed. And i knew God was listening...i always get this image of God when i pray...i imagine him sitting on this throne with this notepad in his hand...and he writes down my prayers...and when he is writing them down and perhaps forgets what comes next, the angels tell him and he laughs at himself and continues writing...it makes me smile to think of God laughing...i cant wait to go up there and laugh with him!
The TOM team left Richhill...Eliz, Ruth, Ben + Timmy. They were just so great there. They moved in that place like i dont know what...and they taught me heaps and they listened to me and gave advice and laughed and just loved. All of what i want to say just sounds so cheesy lol...they are such Christ-like people...and i love them!
Pete Ferg left the methodist circuit to train for ministry in the dark side (only joking : P)...that guy taught me more than he will ever know! He is the one responsible for bringing me back to God and for setting my heart on fire for Him. God is gonna work amazingly through pete, and his kid rebekah doesnt have a clue how lucky she is to have a dad like him!
aw flip, im getting all soppy lol. see, told you it was cheesy!
sometimes i wonder if anyone actually reads this...if they dont i dont really mind cause i enjoy typing up my thoughts...its very theraputic or something lol.
I wont leave it for ages before i make another post...promise ; )
Monday, 25 June 2007
random (?)
Okay...lots and lots of thoughts on my mind today...most of which I won't share on this thing for fear of being beaten lol.
I don't quite know where to start lol. Right, I'll begin with non-God stuff.
1) Knowledge. I have this huge desire to be really smart. I want to write stuff and be able to read it and think wow...did I really compose such a piece of work? I want to be able to think way way way outside the box..like a philosopher would. Okay, this all sounds so stupid but its what I'm thinking! lol
2) Music. This one really frustrates me. I want more musical skill! More and more and more and more until I can't hold still anymore..until all I can do is write worship songs and praise my Jesus all day. I want to be able to sing so bad. A good voice. Now that would be nice ; )
3) Intimacy. This all seems kinda impossible to me lol. This relationship with God. A friend was talking to me the other day about God talking to people. They said they had never really experienced that before. There I was, nodding away looking like I had all the answers (pride...not good!) when, in reality, being totally honest with myself, it hasn't really happened me either. I really admire people who can sit and pray for longer than 1/2 an hour without something else popping into their head and getting bored and stopping. They are the people who are closest to God. And I guess if i want total intimacy with JC then I'm gonna have to learn patience and self-control and to control my short attention span lol.
4) Summer Madness. I'm praying it doesn't rain. Seriously. But if it does, I'm not gonna let it ruin my time there. All my friends go on about how the rain is so incredibly cool and stuff and how we should thank God for it. I should be grateful for it but I'm not. In fact, I loathe the stuff. Really hate it. I hate the way your clothes get damp, the way your hair goes curly, the way your jeans get all wet at the bottom and when you take your shoes off your socks get soggy. So this is a big thing for me lol. Okay, you're laughing....
That'll do for now methinks.
I don't quite know where to start lol. Right, I'll begin with non-God stuff.
1) Knowledge. I have this huge desire to be really smart. I want to write stuff and be able to read it and think wow...did I really compose such a piece of work? I want to be able to think way way way outside the box..like a philosopher would. Okay, this all sounds so stupid but its what I'm thinking! lol
2) Music. This one really frustrates me. I want more musical skill! More and more and more and more until I can't hold still anymore..until all I can do is write worship songs and praise my Jesus all day. I want to be able to sing so bad. A good voice. Now that would be nice ; )
3) Intimacy. This all seems kinda impossible to me lol. This relationship with God. A friend was talking to me the other day about God talking to people. They said they had never really experienced that before. There I was, nodding away looking like I had all the answers (pride...not good!) when, in reality, being totally honest with myself, it hasn't really happened me either. I really admire people who can sit and pray for longer than 1/2 an hour without something else popping into their head and getting bored and stopping. They are the people who are closest to God. And I guess if i want total intimacy with JC then I'm gonna have to learn patience and self-control and to control my short attention span lol.
4) Summer Madness. I'm praying it doesn't rain. Seriously. But if it does, I'm not gonna let it ruin my time there. All my friends go on about how the rain is so incredibly cool and stuff and how we should thank God for it. I should be grateful for it but I'm not. In fact, I loathe the stuff. Really hate it. I hate the way your clothes get damp, the way your hair goes curly, the way your jeans get all wet at the bottom and when you take your shoes off your socks get soggy. So this is a big thing for me lol. Okay, you're laughing....
That'll do for now methinks.
Saturday, 9 June 2007
Wednesday, 30 May 2007
craigavon
yano what? its taken about 10 years but im starting to like craigavon..i like the way the cycle path is right beside my house, i like the great shopping centre (one of the best in NI i reckon), i like my little spot at craigavon lakes where i can just sit in the sun and read, i like my house, i like my garden, i love kernan pitches cause i can take beth there and throw a frisbee for miles or fly a kite or kick a ball with her..its just so cool! i know this is random but i only realised today..
ive really taken to cycling by myself recently. its a great way to get exercise and to just have some time out with The Big Man. ive been cycling every day for the past few days now and i really wanted to go to the lakes but i had forgotton how to get there and didnt want to look like an absolute tube cycling backwards and forwards trying to find them lol. so, this morning, i went online and got myself a wee map of the craigavon cycle trail (http://www.cycleni.com/common/product/documents/Craigavon%20Cycle%20Trail%20map%20side.pdf) and i found how to get there! so, i grabbed my bag, washed some fruit, got a bottle of tesco mountain spring water from the fridge, stuck in my right earphone and set off on my big adventure.
im really unfit :S and part of the reason for the cycling everyday is to get fit for the summer..so as you can imagine i was puffing about 5 minutes in lol. my knees were aching and my muscles were sore..but being the determined person i am, i continued. so i got to the lakes and theres this really big grassy hill and i was gonna go there to eat my fruit and read for a bit but i decided to see what else i could find. cycled on for a bit more..past a housing estate, past powerwalkers, past joggers, past dogs running around and then i saw this bench..and in front of it you could see this great view. the unspoiled natural habitat for so many animals..this beautiful lake. there was long grassy stuff in the middle and the water was so calm. the bench was just about two yards away from the waters edge. beautiful. it was so calm and tranquil. i was in awe of Gods creation! and then i thought, wow..men made these lakes. ok you are probably gonna think im contradicting myself if you dont know anything about craigavon. ok, basically, years and years ago, actual humans made those lakes. they dug out the ground and filled the holes with water and stuff and now...years on...that place is thriving! theres so much wildlife and its so beautiful. i love it there.
sorry, its just all this stuff popped into my head and i want to show everyone how cool my place is! ill take a picture of it and post it on this thing.
ive really taken to cycling by myself recently. its a great way to get exercise and to just have some time out with The Big Man. ive been cycling every day for the past few days now and i really wanted to go to the lakes but i had forgotton how to get there and didnt want to look like an absolute tube cycling backwards and forwards trying to find them lol. so, this morning, i went online and got myself a wee map of the craigavon cycle trail (http://www.cycleni.com/common/product/documents/Craigavon%20Cycle%20Trail%20map%20side.pdf) and i found how to get there! so, i grabbed my bag, washed some fruit, got a bottle of tesco mountain spring water from the fridge, stuck in my right earphone and set off on my big adventure.
im really unfit :S and part of the reason for the cycling everyday is to get fit for the summer..so as you can imagine i was puffing about 5 minutes in lol. my knees were aching and my muscles were sore..but being the determined person i am, i continued. so i got to the lakes and theres this really big grassy hill and i was gonna go there to eat my fruit and read for a bit but i decided to see what else i could find. cycled on for a bit more..past a housing estate, past powerwalkers, past joggers, past dogs running around and then i saw this bench..and in front of it you could see this great view. the unspoiled natural habitat for so many animals..this beautiful lake. there was long grassy stuff in the middle and the water was so calm. the bench was just about two yards away from the waters edge. beautiful. it was so calm and tranquil. i was in awe of Gods creation! and then i thought, wow..men made these lakes. ok you are probably gonna think im contradicting myself if you dont know anything about craigavon. ok, basically, years and years ago, actual humans made those lakes. they dug out the ground and filled the holes with water and stuff and now...years on...that place is thriving! theres so much wildlife and its so beautiful. i love it there.
sorry, its just all this stuff popped into my head and i want to show everyone how cool my place is! ill take a picture of it and post it on this thing.
Thursday, 8 March 2007
wow
like wow....im so in awe of God...
Look how amazing He is! His glory fills the sky! His praises fill the earth....
I love my Jesus....
Holy Spirit come and fill us up so high that we totally overflow...let us be guided by You....let us lay everything down as a sacrifice for you...
Lord infect us with your presence.....
Let the hairs constantly stand up on our necks because we know you are near!
Shake us with your awesome power....use us for miracles, use us as your witnesses...
"My gracious Master and my God,
assist me to proclaim,
to spread through all the earth abroad,
the honours of Thy name"
Send your mighty angels down...let them surround us so satan cant get near...
Give us your armour as preparation for the fight...
Completely marinade us in Jesus' blood...
Help us pray so the DARKNESS WILL TREMBLE
Lord let nothing hold us back from you..
remove everything that will get in the way of me being with you 24/7
keep my flame lit....keep pouring the petrol on God...
I LOVE YOU!
Amen.......(let it be.)
Look how amazing He is! His glory fills the sky! His praises fill the earth....
I love my Jesus....
Holy Spirit come and fill us up so high that we totally overflow...let us be guided by You....let us lay everything down as a sacrifice for you...
Lord infect us with your presence.....
Let the hairs constantly stand up on our necks because we know you are near!
Shake us with your awesome power....use us for miracles, use us as your witnesses...
"My gracious Master and my God,
assist me to proclaim,
to spread through all the earth abroad,
the honours of Thy name"
Send your mighty angels down...let them surround us so satan cant get near...
Give us your armour as preparation for the fight...
Completely marinade us in Jesus' blood...
Help us pray so the DARKNESS WILL TREMBLE
Lord let nothing hold us back from you..
remove everything that will get in the way of me being with you 24/7
keep my flame lit....keep pouring the petrol on God...
I LOVE YOU!
Amen.......(let it be.)
Wednesday, 7 March 2007
satan loves bebo
Ok so im really really missing bebo....its so weird cause i keep trying to find a substitute for it...like myspace....i set up a myspace account in the summer and i hated it...well i went on again a few days ago and i tried to like it...but it just didnt work :( ...i dunno about you but i keep getting these emails saying "Bob has tagged you :)" .....yeah, yeah, yeah, whatever...but the other day i actually clicked on it and set up a Tagged account....as with myspace, i tried to like it but bleh...it didnt work for me....
its just so sad what we all waste our time on....like msn...ok its good for the occasional chat but sometimes i stay on for hours just watching people come online and go offline (sad i know)....it has, i believe, ruined my ability to hold down a decent conversation with people face to face. I say things on msn i couldnt say in real life simply because it feels more comfortable. But yeah, i was having a convo with someone a week ago or something and they asked me why i was doing the whole going off bebo for lent thing, so i told them it was like a sacrifice for Jesus...it would allow me to spend more time reading the bible and praying...then they said...."well i dont see you reading your bible now!" valid point lol! it got me thinking....what would life be like without modern technology....without computers and ipods and mobiles and tv and stuff....i reckon we would all be so much happier....especially spiritually. How much time would we spend with God?! It would be so unreal! How much stronger would our faith be? How many more healings would we witness? How many more visions would be seen? How many more lives would be transformed? Its kind of like technology is satans very sly and subtle way of bringing us away from God....yes, so we may be listening to Christian music on our ipods or looking at a christian bebo page or even watching the God channel....but do those things really bring us closer to God? The only way to get close to God is to spend time with Him. If we watch a home video with our parents in it, are we in any way strengthening our relationship with them? Yes, so we may be learning things, but are we talking to them and getting to know them better?
I know I get caught up with Christian stuff...theres no denying that the faith mission bookshop is my favourite shop in the whole world (especially the big ones in belfast and that cool one in lisburn ;-) ) but should we not focus on worshipping God and praying to Him and just allowing Him to take pole position in our lives? Thats such a hard thing to do....its so hard to give everything over to God...sometimes we want to so badly and we actually sing songs like "im giving you my heart and all that is within i lay it all down, for the sake of you my king...im giving you my dreams im laying down my rights, im giving up my pride for the promise of new life...and i surrender all to you, all to you..." we so want to surrender all but we just arent ready yet...ive told God to take it all in my life...but there are still some things that im grabbing onto with both hands...i really need to let them go...I love God so much....I dont know what i would do without him in my life but seriously...now i find it hard to sing that song in particular because i know that im really not surrendering it all...just the things i want to give to God like problems i dont want to sort out and stressful stuff at school....im not giving Him the good things, the things i like....like relationships and hobbies....i guess im scared of God being in control....what if he takes away people from me? What if i cant control my relationships with people because He is in control? I need to give Him everything....im working on it....its so hard. We sing songs and pray prayers without even thinking about the meaning, when, in fact, they are downright scary and so tough.
I hope I can give my all to You soon, God...I want to be able to hand everything over to You....give me strength and courage and wisdom to do it. Let me know for sure when i'm ready, Lord. Thankyou so much for saving me...You are so awesome! Love You...Amen xo
its just so sad what we all waste our time on....like msn...ok its good for the occasional chat but sometimes i stay on for hours just watching people come online and go offline (sad i know)....it has, i believe, ruined my ability to hold down a decent conversation with people face to face. I say things on msn i couldnt say in real life simply because it feels more comfortable. But yeah, i was having a convo with someone a week ago or something and they asked me why i was doing the whole going off bebo for lent thing, so i told them it was like a sacrifice for Jesus...it would allow me to spend more time reading the bible and praying...then they said...."well i dont see you reading your bible now!" valid point lol! it got me thinking....what would life be like without modern technology....without computers and ipods and mobiles and tv and stuff....i reckon we would all be so much happier....especially spiritually. How much time would we spend with God?! It would be so unreal! How much stronger would our faith be? How many more healings would we witness? How many more visions would be seen? How many more lives would be transformed? Its kind of like technology is satans very sly and subtle way of bringing us away from God....yes, so we may be listening to Christian music on our ipods or looking at a christian bebo page or even watching the God channel....but do those things really bring us closer to God? The only way to get close to God is to spend time with Him. If we watch a home video with our parents in it, are we in any way strengthening our relationship with them? Yes, so we may be learning things, but are we talking to them and getting to know them better?
I know I get caught up with Christian stuff...theres no denying that the faith mission bookshop is my favourite shop in the whole world (especially the big ones in belfast and that cool one in lisburn ;-) ) but should we not focus on worshipping God and praying to Him and just allowing Him to take pole position in our lives? Thats such a hard thing to do....its so hard to give everything over to God...sometimes we want to so badly and we actually sing songs like "im giving you my heart and all that is within i lay it all down, for the sake of you my king...im giving you my dreams im laying down my rights, im giving up my pride for the promise of new life...and i surrender all to you, all to you..." we so want to surrender all but we just arent ready yet...ive told God to take it all in my life...but there are still some things that im grabbing onto with both hands...i really need to let them go...I love God so much....I dont know what i would do without him in my life but seriously...now i find it hard to sing that song in particular because i know that im really not surrendering it all...just the things i want to give to God like problems i dont want to sort out and stressful stuff at school....im not giving Him the good things, the things i like....like relationships and hobbies....i guess im scared of God being in control....what if he takes away people from me? What if i cant control my relationships with people because He is in control? I need to give Him everything....im working on it....its so hard. We sing songs and pray prayers without even thinking about the meaning, when, in fact, they are downright scary and so tough.
I hope I can give my all to You soon, God...I want to be able to hand everything over to You....give me strength and courage and wisdom to do it. Let me know for sure when i'm ready, Lord. Thankyou so much for saving me...You are so awesome! Love You...Amen xo
Tuesday, 6 March 2007
influential love
ok so do you ever meet someone who is really amazing? Do you ever come across people who are so kind hearted and loving that you can just see Jesus in their eyes when they look at you? I have a few people like that in my life...it blows my mind...i was thinking about it today cause...well you look at these peoples lives and yeah, they have made some mistakes in the past, but they have allowed God to totally transform their lives into something new and fresh and real....right now, these people are having a humongus (<<-- a="" about="" am="" and="" anyways="" are="" around="" at="" basically="" blessed="" cool="" do="" even="" example="" fib="" for="" giving="" god-stuff...they="" god...i="" gossiping...like="" have="" help="" helping="" hunger="" hungry="" i="" impact="" in="" it...="" it="" its="" itself="" jesus....they="" jesus="" just="" know="" knowing="" knowledge="" life...they="" life="" little="" live="" lives...like="" look="" love="" make="" makes="" me="" my="" nbsp="" on="" or="" other="" passionate="" people="" peoples="" so="" sometimes="" sp="" span="" telling="" temptation="" that="" the="" them="" these="" they="" think="" to="" too...but="" twice="" us="" want="" we="" what="" who="" with="" without="" would="" you="">
Live your life as if Jesus is standing right beside you all the time...in church, in school in town wherever...what would he say about the things you say or even think? Its hard to control our actions never mind our thoughts! I dunno about you but right now it seems to me as if none of my life mirrors anything of what Jesus was. He never did anything bad...he never even had any bad thoughts about anything...i really want to be like Jesus. I really want to have love...i really want to be love...right now that all seems pretty impossible....i really am gonna have to pray seriously about this...i mean, we cant do this without God on our side. He doesnt set out to be like the kid in the playground who watches your every move and tells the teacher when you make one tiny slip...hes there to walk with you and help you every step of the way. When you fall, he picks you up...when you graze your knee on the ground and its so sore and stingy that you cant walk, He lifts you up and carries you until you can walk on your own....its amazing how much he loves us...its also amazing how much we dont deserve that love...how much we take it for granted...how much we forget about it...like i know this seems weird...but God, the one who created everything in existence (think of the complexity of everything...every cell, every atom) chooses to love us....look how small we are compared to the vastness of the universe!! It flippin blows my mind....really does.....dont neglect God's love <3 span="">
Live your life as if Jesus is standing right beside you all the time...in church, in school in town wherever...what would he say about the things you say or even think? Its hard to control our actions never mind our thoughts! I dunno about you but right now it seems to me as if none of my life mirrors anything of what Jesus was. He never did anything bad...he never even had any bad thoughts about anything...i really want to be like Jesus. I really want to have love...i really want to be love...right now that all seems pretty impossible....i really am gonna have to pray seriously about this...i mean, we cant do this without God on our side. He doesnt set out to be like the kid in the playground who watches your every move and tells the teacher when you make one tiny slip...hes there to walk with you and help you every step of the way. When you fall, he picks you up...when you graze your knee on the ground and its so sore and stingy that you cant walk, He lifts you up and carries you until you can walk on your own....its amazing how much he loves us...its also amazing how much we dont deserve that love...how much we take it for granted...how much we forget about it...like i know this seems weird...but God, the one who created everything in existence (think of the complexity of everything...every cell, every atom) chooses to love us....look how small we are compared to the vastness of the universe!! It flippin blows my mind....really does.....dont neglect God's love <3 span="">
Monday, 22 January 2007
floating
Haha im really not supposed to be on this...i have to finish my coursework! But something really strange happened tonight...ok well band practice was on tonight and we played a couple songs then we went out into the minor hall to have a prayer time. In situations where people can pray out loud if they like, i always feel somewhat awkward...you rarely hear me pray out loud in times like that...in fact, with most prayer times like that one, my mind wouldnt focus on God or even praying...it would wander onto different things like school or friends...id just sit there and think and let my imagination go...but tonight...it was weird....i listened to prayers...i prayed my own prayers in my head...i prayed for friends...I prayed about my faith...i prayed for loadsa things...then my prayer just kinda blurted out...i didnt even think about what i was gonna say or anything. It just came out. If i do pray out loud i search for words that will make the prayer make sense to other people. But tonight...everything made sense...and it required no thought whatsoever. I was sitting there with my eyes shut after the prayer and this amazing sense of calm and peace and awe and joy and thankfulness and mercy and grace just washed over me...at one point i saw a bright white light and it felt like i was floating...for some reason i felt like i was really small...i dont mean that in a metaphorical way, i mean literally, i felt like i was in a 2 year olds body...just floating...it was the weirdest thing ever but it just felt so right...I dunno....but in those few moments, I was overcome by the presence of God...I saw everything I should be thankful for...I saw everything i want from my faith...I saw everything God can give me...I saw the way God can shine through me...I saw how i can change and make the change lasting and permanent. I want God to give me more!! I want more from Him! I want to feel His presence around me 24/7...not just when im at some worship event or something...I want to change. That change is happening...slowly but surely...im getting there but its only by Gods grace and mercy and His awesome strength that I can do this. He is totally blowing my mind with amazing thoughts and I can feel Him building me up everyday...But there are two thoughts stuck in my head that I really needa get down here or ill explode...I believe they are things that God wants me to focus on this year...
Flip sake...there is a revolution on the way...there is dreaming...there is praying...there is hoping...there is loving...we are the revolutionaries! Lets start revolutionising the WORLD!!
- Changing. Changing the little things about our lives...bad habits eg. gossiping, thinking bad thought about others ("ugh...look at her hair...its really gross...why would anyone want to dye their hair that colour?"), purposely annoying siblings just to see them suffer, white lies (the "fibs" that don't really matter), moaning about doing chores around the house, watching pointless TV when we could be reading Gods word and letting it be absorbed into our very souls...
- Every day matters. We have to realise that every day we live on this planet counts for something. Each hour, each minute, each second is a precious gift from God which could be snatched from us at any time. We should choose to live each moment for God...no let me rephrase that... we should choose to live each moment by allowing God to live through us. Live by the WWJD slogan...in everything you do, every decision you have to make...ask yourself "what would Jesus do?"...a part of realising that every day matters is not to focus on the things of this world....but to "fix our eyes on what is unseen"...Nothing in this world is of any value. By focusing on what is unseen, we truly get the point of realising what is really significant in our lives...Jesus.
Flip sake...there is a revolution on the way...there is dreaming...there is praying...there is hoping...there is loving...we are the revolutionaries! Lets start revolutionising the WORLD!!
Friday, 19 January 2007
Do your thang!
This video always makes me happy :-D watch it and feel the beat! lol...dont be afraid to dance :-P
Stuff
Well, Im back at school...have been for 2 weeks now! Tbh, i kinda forgot i owned a blog...hopefully i wont forget in the future!
Getting close to God is harder than it seems...im really struggling with the whole personal study aspect of it. There are so many distractions and I just get distracted lol. Especially when im thinking about things that are in the past...I had it all planned out...I was gonna read a chapter every other night without the use of a devotional book and then with the nights in between, i was gonna use a devotional book called God 360 for study to make things a bit more understandable. The first few nights of reading i learnt so much stuff and it just stuck...but now time has just vanished! And the other things like stopping all the little bad habits...thats even harder.
I cant do this without God. I wrote this poem-ish kinda thing the other night...its not that relevant but yeh...here it is. (bear in mind im not the greatest of poets!)
I'm watching you...
not from afar...
I'm quite close.
Within touching distance.
You dont notice.
You stare straight through me like I'm a sheet of glass.
I'm talking to you...
No, I'm shouting.
Through cupped hands
right at your ear.
You don't notice.
You stand there
as if you have industrial earplugs in.
Do you know I'm here?
You can't see me
You can't hear me...
I tried telling you
but you didn't listen.
You see, I love you.
I've always loved you...
You just don't know it.
I tried telling you
but now, it's too late.
You have gone.
Out of reach
Beyond touching.
Why didn't you hear me the first time?
I'm shouting for you to come back.
I'm yelling my lungs out.
"I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU!"
Whats the point?
You just keep walking away.
I should just give up.
This is way too hard...
but i can't.
I love you.
I want to be able to write about God on this...to write things that make sense...to talk about complicated things and make then seem not so complicated. I want to understand things in the bible and things that go wrong in the world...but im not there yet. I dont think anyone will ever get there. Some things only God knows about. But im waiting for Him so that He can reveal things to me...even little things...that make sense.
I dont think this post makes sense...
Getting close to God is harder than it seems...im really struggling with the whole personal study aspect of it. There are so many distractions and I just get distracted lol. Especially when im thinking about things that are in the past...I had it all planned out...I was gonna read a chapter every other night without the use of a devotional book and then with the nights in between, i was gonna use a devotional book called God 360 for study to make things a bit more understandable. The first few nights of reading i learnt so much stuff and it just stuck...but now time has just vanished! And the other things like stopping all the little bad habits...thats even harder.
I cant do this without God. I wrote this poem-ish kinda thing the other night...its not that relevant but yeh...here it is. (bear in mind im not the greatest of poets!)
I'm watching you...
not from afar...
I'm quite close.
Within touching distance.
You dont notice.
You stare straight through me like I'm a sheet of glass.
I'm talking to you...
No, I'm shouting.
Through cupped hands
right at your ear.
You don't notice.
You stand there
as if you have industrial earplugs in.
Do you know I'm here?
You can't see me
You can't hear me...
I tried telling you
but you didn't listen.
You see, I love you.
I've always loved you...
You just don't know it.
I tried telling you
but now, it's too late.
You have gone.
Out of reach
Beyond touching.
Why didn't you hear me the first time?
I'm shouting for you to come back.
I'm yelling my lungs out.
"I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU!"
Whats the point?
You just keep walking away.
I should just give up.
This is way too hard...
but i can't.
I love you.
I want to be able to write about God on this...to write things that make sense...to talk about complicated things and make then seem not so complicated. I want to understand things in the bible and things that go wrong in the world...but im not there yet. I dont think anyone will ever get there. Some things only God knows about. But im waiting for Him so that He can reveal things to me...even little things...that make sense.
I dont think this post makes sense...
Sunday, 7 January 2007
new beginnings
Deary me oh! I finally have a blog....as well as bebo and myspace and msn...talk about distractions in today society or what?!
Actually, I wanted to get this because theres so much i wana get off my chest and i think that if people read some stuff i have to say (i know this sounds bigheaded...) well it might strike a chord with them or something...no one reads anything on bebo and tbh im never on myspace so this seemed like the best option ;)
Right...where do i start...
Well firstly, lately ive been striving for change. Ive been stuck in the same place in my faith for a while now...i just set God on the shelf and became a "cruise control christian"...just kinda going along at the same speed...not really accelerating but not really deccelerating either. But so much has happened in the past few weeks...I decided to take this walk seriously. I realised that to grow more and to get more from my faith i have to seek God. Put Him numero uno in my life. When you put God 1st and focus only on Him everything else fits into place. So im doing it....like its not easy...theres sacrifices to be made and i have to change the small things about my life that arent pleasing God. But sometimes the smallest things are the hardest things to get rid of. I made a list of loads of things that werent right and prayed over it....and i gave it to megi and she prayed over it too....and ive been praying a lot more and reading the bible...its so cool cause when you ask God to reveal stuff to you when reading His word, some stuff just jumps right off the page and hits you smack in the face...and often its simple things...like in Genesis where it says "God made man in His own image...and He looked down and saw it was good". Like flip me...we are patterned in Gods image...the guy who created the whole earth, the whole universe...and he looks down on us and thinks we are beautiful...we arent even worthy to be his slaves or his servants....yet he calls us his children!?! Thats pretty immense...But yeah...Jesus is becoming number one...I want to make him all that matters in my life...
ok i think ill post the next issue in a different post cause this one is getting quite long....
anywayss keep relying on JC for EVERYTHING! He will get you through!
xox
Actually, I wanted to get this because theres so much i wana get off my chest and i think that if people read some stuff i have to say (i know this sounds bigheaded...) well it might strike a chord with them or something...no one reads anything on bebo and tbh im never on myspace so this seemed like the best option ;)
Right...where do i start...
Well firstly, lately ive been striving for change. Ive been stuck in the same place in my faith for a while now...i just set God on the shelf and became a "cruise control christian"...just kinda going along at the same speed...not really accelerating but not really deccelerating either. But so much has happened in the past few weeks...I decided to take this walk seriously. I realised that to grow more and to get more from my faith i have to seek God. Put Him numero uno in my life. When you put God 1st and focus only on Him everything else fits into place. So im doing it....like its not easy...theres sacrifices to be made and i have to change the small things about my life that arent pleasing God. But sometimes the smallest things are the hardest things to get rid of. I made a list of loads of things that werent right and prayed over it....and i gave it to megi and she prayed over it too....and ive been praying a lot more and reading the bible...its so cool cause when you ask God to reveal stuff to you when reading His word, some stuff just jumps right off the page and hits you smack in the face...and often its simple things...like in Genesis where it says "God made man in His own image...and He looked down and saw it was good". Like flip me...we are patterned in Gods image...the guy who created the whole earth, the whole universe...and he looks down on us and thinks we are beautiful...we arent even worthy to be his slaves or his servants....yet he calls us his children!?! Thats pretty immense...But yeah...Jesus is becoming number one...I want to make him all that matters in my life...
ok i think ill post the next issue in a different post cause this one is getting quite long....
anywayss keep relying on JC for EVERYTHING! He will get you through!
xox
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