He has given dreams and hopes and words for that place...why is none of it happening? why do we seem to be stuck in a dead end? we are seriously going round in circles. we have been warned too many times that we need to get down on our knees and pray seriously - with passion and vigour and heart and soul and mind and strength. how can we expect to do that when we can barely pray for 15 minutes at the start of every service?
why do we not invite the Holy Spirit in? of course, we SAY we want the Holy Spirit in...we even pray it. but then we gossip and whisper and say bad things and make cruel jokes and comment on what "she's" wearing. does the Holy Spirit really want to come into a place like that? i think not. do mere human beings even want to come into a place like that? i think not.
of course, we don't drink, we don't smoke, we don't steal, we haven't had pre-marital sex, we aren't murderers, we don't do drugs, we don't even swear...but when it comes down to it, we are stained with as much sin as anybody lying in a cold prison cell.
Jesus isn't proud of the way i act sometimes. Jesus isn't proud of what i say and what i think sometimes. but He IS proud when we draw on His strength to help us to make those changes.
maybe the key is to start dealing with ourselves, our OWN sin before we start working with God to turn an entire church around. maybe, just maybe, we need to get on our knees and repent of our own sin and be forgiven and washed clean and ready to aim to be true disciples of Jesus Christ rather than living double lives. we cannot say one thing and then do another - what kind of witness is that?
it's not just about the speaking. words can mean very little these days.
i want to see these dreams being fulfilled. i simply cannot stand by and watch that place turn into a furniture shop. it would break my heart...it would break God's heart.
so please, God is asking you to get on your knees. whatever rubbish you have that needs sorted out, pray to Him and He will help you. He is proud of you for going for it :D
2 comments:
hey emma, its samantha from upd :) i saw a link on facebook to this so i clicked on it and read it along with some of your other posts. each one is really inspiring - keep up the great work! love you and i can't wait to see you monday!
hi emma, adam here! i can really see your heart coming thru in this. i have a book that i'm reading at the moment which you may enjoy. your totally right, we need to deal with the sin within us and rely totally on God. keep your chin up, and keep going. with u in prayer.
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