floating

Haha im really not supposed to be on this...i have to finish my coursework! But something really strange happened tonight...ok well band practice was on tonight and we played a couple songs then we went out into the minor hall to have a prayer time. In situations where people can pray out loud if they like, i always feel somewhat awkward...you rarely hear me pray out loud in times like that...in fact, with most prayer times like that one, my mind wouldnt focus on God or even praying...it would wander onto different things like school or friends...id just sit there and think and let my imagination go...but tonight...it was weird....i listened to prayers...i prayed my own prayers in my head...i prayed for friends...I prayed about my faith...i prayed for loadsa things...then my prayer just kinda blurted out...i didnt even think about what i was gonna say or anything. It just came out. If i do pray out loud i search for words that will make the prayer make sense to other people. But tonight...everything made sense...and it required no thought whatsoever. I was sitting there with my eyes shut after the prayer and this amazing sense of calm and peace and awe and joy and thankfulness and mercy and grace just washed over me...at one point i saw a bright white light and it felt like i was floating...for some reason i felt like i was really small...i dont mean that in a metaphorical way, i mean literally, i felt like i was in a 2 year olds body...just floating...it was the weirdest thing ever but it just felt so right...I dunno....but in those few moments, I was overcome by the presence of God...I saw everything I should be thankful for...I saw everything i want from my faith...I saw everything God can give me...I saw the way God can shine through me...I saw how i can change and make the change lasting and permanent. I want God to give me more!! I want more from Him! I want to feel His presence around me 24/7...not just when im at some worship event or something...I want to change. That change is happening...slowly but surely...im getting there but its only by Gods grace and mercy and His awesome strength that I can do this. He is totally blowing my mind with amazing thoughts and I can feel Him building me up everyday...But there are two thoughts stuck in my head that I really needa get down here or ill explode...I believe they are things that God wants me to focus on this year...

• Changing. Changing the little things about our lives...bad habits eg. gossiping, thinking bad thought about others ("ugh...look at her hair...its really gross...why would anyone want to dye their hair that colour?"), purposely annoying siblings just to see them suffer, white lies (the "fibs" that don't really matter), moaning about doing chores around the house, watching pointless TV when we could be reading Gods word and letting it be absorbed into our very souls...
• Every day matters. We have to realise that every day we live on this planet counts for something. Each hour, each minute, each second is a precious gift from God which could be snatched from us at any time. We should choose to live each moment for God...no let me rephrase that... we should choose to live each moment by allowing God to live through us. Live by the WWJD slogan...in everything you do, every decision you have to make...ask yourself "what would Jesus do?"...a part of realising that every day matters is not to focus on the things of this world....but to "fix our eyes on what is unseen"...Nothing in this world is of any value. By focusing on what is unseen, we truly get the point of realising what is really significant in our lives...Jesus.

Please...if you know someone who has this book or if you have money to buy this book...go buy it...its called Rachels Tears...in any good Faith Mission bookshop...I have read this book about 50 gazillion times...but every time i read it again...i learn something fresh and new that can be applied to my life. If you cant get hold of one or buy one...please ask me and i will be glad to lend you mine (or if im in a good mood, buy you one! lol...please dont take advantage of me through this offer though...). It really is fantastic....essential reading for anyone who wants to become deadly serious about their faith.
Flip sake...there is a revolution on the way...there is dreaming...there is praying...there is hoping...there is loving...we are the revolutionaries! Lets start revolutionising the WORLD!!